Can’t Sleep

Ok so I know that I have been distant lately to say the least. Times are busy and I realize that I have to make time to blog, time won’t make itself available.

To catch you (those of you who still faithfully check in when I post) up on things lately..

There is not that much catching up to do. Just alot of thinking lately. Trying to figure things out and its not really working. I am frustrated alot. There seems to be anger. These things are personal I know but I am ok with sharing this much with you all out there in cyberspace. The details are private.

I am good, and I am thankful for that. Times are hard, lots of confusion, but I try to have a positive outlook on everything. There is ALWAYS someone who has it worse off than you, and you ususally don’t have to go far to see it.

May God bless all of you, and may He give me the strength to continue to write on here Thank you to all of you who faithful still read when I do post. You’re all a blessing in my life!

Anchor Room Fun

Right now I am in the Anchor Room listening to my Dad’s co-worker and his band play. They are ABSOLUTELY amazing. Great musicians. Great singers. If I could have recorded this I would have posted it on a video. Right now they are playing a more jazzy type of song and it’s got me so relaxed.

Wishing you were here!

If I Could Part II

I don’t know what happened..

I gave too much of myself away too fast.

I trusted you with my heart. You had ALL of me.

I gave you my time, my thoughts, my heart, my life, my passion, my love.

I offered you almost everything I had to give. I wanted to share in all of your dreams..

I was gonna find a way to give you the world….

And…

You broke my heart, almost to the point of no return it felt.

After all that has happened and after the time that has now passed..

I would still do EVERYTHING I told  you I would in my last post (”If I Could”)!

Because that is how God feels about you and that is how God made me to be.

Remember..You ARE loved. You ARE strong. Don’t look for love in men or humans. Look for God, He is love!

Love God. Love others. Be blessed. Live with passion.

If I Could…

If I could I would take all of the pain, and struggles and tough decisions you have to make, and I would bear those burdens so you wouldn’t have to.

If I could I would make sure that you never ever felt pain or hurt again. All you would ever feel was love, joy, peace, fullfillment, happiness, contentment, and a ton of other good feelings.

If I could I would make sure you never wanted anything ever again.

But I can’t do all that.

I can share in your pain and struggles and tough decisions with you, but I can’t make them my own.

I will do everything within my human power to be there with you every step of the way, at all times, and make sure that you are taken care of.

I can show you Christ’s love.

I can support you and be your personal cheerleader (no wise-cracks!)

I can hold you when you cry, give you the best advice I have.

I can share in your victories and failures.

I can, will, and do pray for you, and that is the greatest thing I will ever do for you.

To the best of my ability I will do everything I possibly can to take care of you, and whatever I can’t do I will let God finish. Because…

You

Are

Worth it!

You are strong. You are loved. You are amazing. You have a future and it is awesome.

Love God. Love others. Be blessed. Live with passion.

The Day

Ok so I don’t have alot of time, but I hate going more than two days without writing so I thought I would be a good boy and post real quick.

I have to say that I am in fact typing this post on my church’s new 24″ iMac. Oh yea. Mac=prefection. If God has a computer then it’s a mac. This is manna for the computer geek.

But yes. Youth group was great. Pastor Aaron preached a great message on destiny and then we broke into our discussion groups. It was great. I was blessed to be able to play acoustic during worship and I think it was great. God moved on my heart atleast.

Love God. Love others. Be blessed. Live with passion.

Letter To Myself

I can’t take complete credit for this one, I have to thank Brad Paisley for the inspiriation.

If I was gonna write a letter to myself…

I’d tell you that you’ve had it easy so far. I know being thirteen can be hard, but better times are ahead. Don’t worry about all the girls at school, ’cause your not going to wanna be with them in 5 or 6 years anyway. Don’t put so much trust in living a life of fun because you’ll end up taking the fun out of living. School is annoying and friends are forever, but take the extra time to make sure your on top of your schoolwork.

You’ve had 2 girlfriends so far and your no where near ready to be married yet so don’t rush into fallin in love, its gonna be a bit. Don’t think you can blame everything on your brothers (it backfires!). Movies and food are not everything. Your wisest confidant is always looking to someone for wisdom. If you tell everybody everything then there is no excitement in life.

Don’t be quick to judge in your heart and mind, you have no clue what is really going on! Your words can hurt people and cause damage; think before you speak. You greatest strength is also your greatest weakness (talking). I beg you, don’t spend your money, save it now so I can spend it later. Tell your brothers you love them now. Don’t be too hard on them, they’re supposed to be this way now. Graphic design is cool, but music is WAY cooler. Don’t let people pressure you because you don’t wanna hurt feelings. Be up front and honest, the worst people can do is leave you alone and that’s not a bad thing.

God is number one. The Word of God is absolute and you need it more than you think you do. Never stop talking to God; when He’s His quietest it’s because He is listening to you so carefully that He forgets to let you know He’s still there. There is no greater virtue than humilty (and you need it! You DO have pride, don’t kid yourself) and the best thing you can do for youself is to start loving others unconditionally now and see past all the flaws and failures and sins and accept them with Christ’s love. Love yourself because you are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are loved.

If I was gonna write a letter to myself, this is what I would say…

Dessert

I don’t know about you but I love milkshakes. I think they are one of the top 5 greatest desserts of all time. Personally I like Steak ‘N Shakes milkshakes. Hand-dipped, ice cold, with a beautiful cherry on top and whip cream. Doesn’t get any better than that.

I am always torn between Mint Chocolate and the Peanut Butter Bits ‘N Pieces milkshake.

What’s your favorite milkshake or dessert?

The Former. . .

I really shouldn’t be posting right now. I am supposed to leave for work in ten min. and I am no where near ready. But I have not be on here reguarly enough so I wanted to post.

I find it funny how life goes. Last night I was kind of down and to make a long story short I was gettin ready for bed, texting a friend and then I rememebered an old friend that I haven’t talked to in a long time. I sent her a message today, but to top it all off, I found another friend that I went to school with like from junior high! She is still the same girl but very grown up. I can’t wait to catch up with these friends.

Do you have someone you haven’t talked to in ages? Maybe you had fight or maybe you just haven’t had time. Take some time today and find that person and send them a message. You never know what will happen.

Be Blessed. Love God. Love others. Live with passion.

No words to describe..

I just read a post on my friend Pete Wilson’s blog. It’s a series of videos. It’s long. But it will change you. It changed me. I didn’t think it would. Check it out!

Becoming Men Pt. 2

I have to say that I have been very lax and awful really about posting reguarly lately. I apologize. Granted I don’t have a whole lot of people reading this everyday, but there are people and it is growing slowly, so I apologize.

I had this grand plan of writing everyday until this series was finished. I feel like this can be the last post. This was harder than I thought to put into words, being the men that God has called us to be, and maybe I will expound or start over in the future, but I feel that I have done my best for this present time.

It doesn’t matter how many words I say so much as it matters whether or not you are listening.

We as men are called by God to be strong. To have respect and honor. Integrity. To be leaders. Even the shy guy that never talks is called by God to be a leader. As single men we lead our friends. As boyfriends we are leaders and learning to lead for the future. As husbands we are leaders. In all this we must not lose focus of what it all is about. What are we leading people to?

God. It’s ALL about God. It’s SO much more about God before it is about His greatest commandment to us, to love others. God first; loving God with ALL our hearts. Then others. Love others like you ARE loving yourself. There is no next after these two things. Don’t think about yourself. You focus on God and others and pointing others to God and He will take care of you.

One final thought. God Almighty said of King David, that he was “a man after my own heart“. David, despite his greatest blunders, was in my opinion, a real man. He said once something that resonates within me to my very core and it is something I believe should be an anthem for all men . . .

“I will not sacrifce to my God, that which costs me nothing“

Be Blessed. Love God. Love others.